2. Abjection

A low or downcast state. a Depression. A feeling of Degradation.

Wikipedia: Abjection is a kind of depressed feeling, a bleak and heavyhearted state of mind. A series of terrible jobs might send you into a

state of abjection. Disappointments and bad luck can lead to a feeling of abjection, like the abjection of a gloomy poet or the abjection you can sense in the losers of a spelling bee.

“After 2 months of working at the sharpest rides I was consumed by an unshakeable abjection”
“My Dad glorifies living in a state of Abjection; he romanticizes the ‘Blues’ ” it can be a miserable plague if its not shaken off before you let it pollute you.

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